Teeny Tiny Signs???

We've been feeling alittle down about Miss Yun-jeong and our lack of ANY info on her since referral. The latest info we have on her health and development is from Nov. and was included in her referral paperwork. This mamma needs a glimpse of her baby.......a glimpse to let me know how many teeth she has now, if she started walking, if she's still chatty, and if she's still healthy due to her "needs". I have seriously boarded the crazy train and have these weird thoughts that maybe she doesn't even exist, and sometimes refer to her as the phantom baby!! I told Joe this weekend that we just need alittle sign........something that tells me that this is really real. And then it came..................



If you've been following our story you know that ladybugs have been a meaningful sign for us throughout these YEARS of trying to build our family. From beginning with China and then waiting for Jae-min we seemed to always see a ladybug when we needed it most. And then after Jae-min came home, they stopped. I don't think we had seen one since stepping foot in our house with our little bundle. Because we didn't need that teeny tiny sign anymore. Well, we need it now and sure enough it came.

As I sat in the "snuggle chair" in Jae-min's room today and read books before nap I looked to my right and on the wall was an itty bitty ladybug. I watched him crawl up the side of the window very slowly and then disappear. As I snuggled my boy I knew that was my sign that everything is going to be ok.....that Yun-jeong does exist. In this cold, snowy, icy day a teeny tiny bug appeared to give me strength to continue on this journey. Or I've just officially "lost it". Haha

Either way I'll take any sign I can to put one foot in front of the other............because each day that goes by brings us one step closer to Yun-jeong.............with or without those updated lifelines!!