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November 3, 2007

We attended the culture class (or as Joe refers to it Culture Club) today. It was very interesting. We learned alot about China, the history, and geography. We learned how to say some phrases in chinese hello, please give me my baby. We hope to use that one some day. The whole day was so interesting and I truly felt so close to her all day. I think it's what we needed after the hard time we've been having lately. It definately lifted our spirits. Every time I go to our agency I get this sense of calm over me and peacefulness. Adoption is definately the path we're supposed to take.
The director of our agency arrived with the retired director of the CCAA who she has been hosting. She had just returned from a trip to China and thought he could share some insight into the slowdown. This man was very nice and I kind of felt bad for him because he was standing in a room full of families who are beginning to lose hope. He shared what he could about the wait and other things and tried to assure us that if you are willing to wait there is a baby waiting at the end. All answers were pretty vague. With no concrete answer for the slowdown, all the vague reasons don't really matter to us. What matters is that we want our baby NOW. One mom stood up and thanked him. She has already adopted a little girl from China (now going back for 2) and most likely this was the man who made it happen on the China side. That was an emotional moment for everyone!!
While there, we also met some email friends who share the same LID as us. It was nice to put a face to a name. In a perfect world these are the people we would travel with but with the increasing wait so many things could change so we just don't know. It was nice to meet them just the same.
On our way home we stopped for dinner and at the table next to us were parents with two little Asian girls. A perfect ending to a great day!!!
Oh and if you were wondering. Joe had the chicken salad and he said it was DELICIOUS. He thinks it had grapes inside. Weird yet tasty.

October 2007

Our annual Halloween party was a hit!!!! It's always so much fun. This year's theme was Disney Characters. We had some interesting costumes. Joe and I of course came as something together. We were slinky dog from Toy Story. I was the front and Joe was the back and then we connected ourselves. We are pretty clever for always finishing the costume the night before. Next year's theme was chosen at random. Stars Wars. Ohh thats a tuff one. Start thinking everyone. May the force be with you.

October 2007

We received some registration forms to fill out regarding the upcoming culture class to be held at CAWLI. The biggest dilemna Joe found was did he want to sign up for chicken salad or roast beef for lunch? We spent many minutes contemplating this and he decided on chicken salad. Hope it's good!!!
This month we put 2 ladybug stickers on Martin's tags as a little reminder of the wait. Joe wouldn't let me buy him a ladybug collar(because he's a boy is what he said) so we compromised and decided on the stickers. I got 2 packages because I have a feeling we'll be replacing them often with this long wait. CAWLI updated us as the wait now being 23 months. This one hit me like a ton of bricks. This has been a very hard month because I think the reality of the situation is starting to set in. The one thing that is keeping us sane is that we truly believe we have a daughter born halfway around the world that we are meant to bring home. We are holding onto the shred of belief for all its worth. We don't know why this has to be so hard and are beginning to feel pretty discouraged. We love talking about our journey with everyone but the questions are beginning to get mord difficult to answer. Right now our hearts say hang in there it will all work out in the end.
This month I left work and burst into tears in the parking lot. I was feeling pretty beaten down about it all. Then I looked at my purse and saw 1 little ladybug. A sign?? I'll take it. It's all I got.

September 2007

We had gone camping this month close to home but it was alot of fun. While there ladybugs found me and landed on my shirt. It's been funny lately. Ladybugs have been appearing in the strangest places especially when I've been feeling down. Our monthly update continues to increase the wait time which is sooooooo difficult. We have begun to wonder what's going on? This month I also discovered a website called China Adopt Talk and its a wealth of info. Much of the info is about the increasing wait and there are many other families who are feeling discouraged. Well, Joe wasn't home yet and I decided to go on the website and read some of the posts which was a big mistake. By the time Joe came home I was crying and sobbing at the computer. They are predicting the wait to continue to increase. At this time we talked and want to remain positive so we will continue on as before.
We actually emailed our agency about an upcoming culture class they hold every year. They responded and think the class will be held in Nov. Well, that's something to do during the wait.

September 2007

The summer is winding down and fall may be fast approaching. It's always around this time and in June when I become sad to have left the classroom and found this new job. September and June were always fun months when teaching and sometimes I kinda miss. Oh well, if I had never found my current job, I would never have met all those families who have adopted. I truly believe that is why I am working where I am and sometimes things work out in mysterious ways! As many of you know that our plan once our child comes home is for me to stop working for awhile and to just be a mom. There are many options with my current job of cutting back and things but I have dreamt of being of mom for so long and want to enjoy every minute for awhile. Joe's excited for me to stay home but is a little jealous that I'll do fun stuff without him (if you know us then you know we don't do many things separately) and are so excited to do things as a threesome. I'm sure we'll be dragging him on our little adventures too.