On Thursday, Jae-min had his last day of preschool for the year. It wasn't as emotional for this mom as I know next year will be because he'll be going back there in September....but it was still a bit surreal. Jae-min left excited to be giving these flowers to all the teachers, and when I got him out of the car he grabbed hold of one of the packages and presented it to his "favorite" teacher with a huge smile!!!!
He's had a wonderful year here and I'm so thankful that his first experience with school was so positive. I was able to go and watch a magic show with him for the last day and watching him with his friends and marching in line is just so great. He did so super well there and I am so happy with our choice. But.....how did it happen that he's looks so much more grown up now????
This is him on the last day......
This was him on the first day.....
What I love most is that after months and months of school, he's still smiling!!!!
And this was him on the first day holding hands with the teacher walking into school. Be still my heart...look how tiny he was and I remember feeling so nervous for him....ok ok and I maybe even shed some tears Haha.
Just wanted to update you all on our family and missing Marty. Jae-min has spoken about Marty every day (at least multiple times a day) since his passing. Some of the questions are hard, and sometimes he'll just randomly say he misses him. Last night it sort of came to a head. He was being fresh so I spoke to him sternly and he lost it....I mean tears, sobbing, pretty much hysterics. I know he's been missing Marty alot and I also know that he's a thinker, so has been thinking about things lots. Poor guy was up till 2am last night crying, sobbing, and refusing to sleep because thats when he told us he dreams about Marty.
My mommy heart was pretty much ripped in two. And there is nothing in this world that I can do for my boy but to hold him, to listen, and to tell him over and over about Marty's angel wings and heaven. And to pray that Martin is watching us and will maybe cover this little boy's heart with peace. Boy, this is really really hard.
