October 2007

We received some registration forms to fill out regarding the upcoming culture class to be held at CAWLI. The biggest dilemna Joe found was did he want to sign up for chicken salad or roast beef for lunch? We spent many minutes contemplating this and he decided on chicken salad. Hope it's good!!!
This month we put 2 ladybug stickers on Martin's tags as a little reminder of the wait. Joe wouldn't let me buy him a ladybug collar(because he's a boy is what he said) so we compromised and decided on the stickers. I got 2 packages because I have a feeling we'll be replacing them often with this long wait. CAWLI updated us as the wait now being 23 months. This one hit me like a ton of bricks. This has been a very hard month because I think the reality of the situation is starting to set in. The one thing that is keeping us sane is that we truly believe we have a daughter born halfway around the world that we are meant to bring home. We are holding onto the shred of belief for all its worth. We don't know why this has to be so hard and are beginning to feel pretty discouraged. We love talking about our journey with everyone but the questions are beginning to get mord difficult to answer. Right now our hearts say hang in there it will all work out in the end.
This month I left work and burst into tears in the parking lot. I was feeling pretty beaten down about it all. Then I looked at my purse and saw 1 little ladybug. A sign?? I'll take it. It's all I got.