A Very Merry Christmas!!!!

The last few days have been filled with lots of Christmas cheer. Jae-min has had a wonderful time spending time with family and receiving some great gifts. Christmas morning did not disappoint with lots of giggles, squels, and laughter.
Here is our little man on Christmas morning. Joe and I went into his room together...Joe with the video camera, and me with the regular camera. Jae-min's response was "oh 2 cameras!!!" yes Jae-min its the paparazzi. We told him that Hoho had come and he began jumping in his crib.Jae-min and Martin waited in the room until we yelled for them. And then they came arunnin down that hall like lightning. And yes, as old as Marty is and as sick as they claim him to be he made it down that hallway before the little boy and was eager to see what Santa had left for him.

Oh look, a package of muffins.

And some safety scissors too!!!!!!!!!! Wow, Hoho really does listen. And if you look really hard you can see the choo choo set up behind Jae-min. Yup, Hoho got the message.

After all the gifts were opened Jae-min found this gift the best. A new Mickey Mouse cup. Who knew?????

We had a wonderful Christmas and thank all our family for all the beautiful gifts and for celebrating this special day with us. As this is our 2nd Christmas to share with a child, it contained all the magic and splendor we had hoped for. There is nothing better than to watch the face of a child, your child, on Christmas morning.
Merry Christmas sweet Jae-min. You still remain Mommy's favorite gift!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally....They Meet!!!!

Ah, finally after lots of Hoho sightings....these 2 finally have a face to face encounter!!! But it didn't happen in the old fashioned way. We didn't wait in line at the mall and wait and wait and wait, and then purchase that overpriced picture where the kid looks scared out of their wits. Nope, not this momma. We gave old Hoho a sneak attack......let me explain.Our town has lots of fun things for kids this time of year. One of which was a story time....and a promise of a visit of the big man himself. So...I packed up my little munchkin, dressed him in a cute sweater, and off we went. Now his intention was to listen to some stories, see Santa, play with some kids, and have some fun. My intention was to try to score a picture with this unsuspecting Santa.

The stories began and as you can see it was about How the Grinch Stole Christmas. Ok, a little old for my boy....but I still had another motive here. All of a sudden Santa arrived. Yippee, my plan is underway. He sat and listened to the first story and then announced he had to go and feed the reindeer. Ok...this was my moment. Jae-min and I packed up and followed Santa through the store (it was a furntiure store no less). We then said "excuse me Santa I was wondering if you would take a picture with my son". In true Santa fashion he looked into Jae-min's eyes, sat down on a comfy chair, and said "of course!!!"

So...this is our picture with Santa!!! Ok, I know Jae-min has a winter coat on covering the cute sweater, but hey, what do you want for a low down mission? Jae-min asked Hoho for a "choo choo, crayons, safety scissors, and muffins" Um yup, muffins!!!! He then said "hi Hoho, how you doing?" they had a little chat, gave alittle hug, and he was off to feed the reindeer.

Ah......MISSION COMPLETE!!!!

5 Months.....

Here we are at 5 months in the wait for KB too!! We thought we'd creatively make the #5 out of our Christmas stockings this month.

The wait continues to get alittle harder for me each month that goes by. My head knows that this wait could be long, but my heart wants it to be over and to see what the next chapter is for us. I find myself in a bit of a weird place...wishing the months away so that we can see KB too, yet wanting the months to slow down so that Jae-min stays this little forever. Its a hard mix.
We have begun to plan and dream about our next trip to Korea. I have started alittle notebook with sights we want to see, things we want to do this time around, and even stuff we want to buy when there. Its fun to plan and think about the future. Joe even added in some foods he wants to try this time around.

Tonight we loaded up the car and took a drive around town to see the Christmas lights. We listened to holiday music and heard "ooh sparkly, ooh pretty. ooh reindeer" from the backseat. I will cherish these moments with our son forever, always remembering the journey that brought him home and knowing that all we go through this time around will bring us to the perfect child meant for us.

5 months down.....I wonder how many more to go?

O' Christmas Tree!!!

This weekend was full to burstin' with Christmas trees. On Friday night we went to our town's tree lighting. Jae-min stared into the sky as the countdown began (I don't think he really understood what he was looking for). And then all of a sudden the giant tree lit up and the look on Jae-min's face was priceless. He then started clapping and shouting "Yay" over and over and over again.

Santa then rode by in his fancy car. Boy, Jae-min hasn't even had the chance to sit on Santa's lap yet this year, but he sure has seen him in motion alot!!!
On Saturday Jae-min and I went to cut down a tree at a tree farm with my parents. Unfortunately Joe had to work, so we went along with them for the ride. Jae-min had a blast pushing the cart, helping with the saw, and then wheeling the tree back to the car. Martin also had fun running among the trees!!!

Today we went to pick out our tree. Jae-min had fun walking among the trees.....but he mostly had fun...

collecting rocks!!! Yup, you bring the boy to a tree farm and he just wants to collect handfuls of rocks.

We all had a great time and picked out a short, fat, tree....my favorite!!!

Jae-min kept exclaiming "amazing, awesome...I like this one" Gosh, he sounded just like his momma. We picked the perfect tree, set it up, and will decorate it in several days. Jae-min can't wait!!!

Today is also a very special day....its our 12 year wedding anniversary!!! Gosh 12 years Who woulda thunk it? Huh honey? Just kidding. Its been a crazy 12 years. When I thought of that day today I can't believe where our life has taken us. Halfway around the world and back. On that day 12 years ago, I would never have thought it. But....I am so happy with every minute of the past 12 years.

Happy Anniversary honey. We've come a long way baby. Can't wait to see what the next 12 brings!!!

2 Years Ago....

My phone rang....and I heard the sweetest words I had every heard....."I have great news for you"! Jae-min was matched with us and in that moment, in that phone call, I became a MOM. This sweet little face was officially mine, all mine!!! I remember the day like it was yesterday. I remember being so scared, excited, overwhelmed, and nervous all at the same time. I remember the joy so vividly. I remember continuing to work the rest of the day and meeting Joe at home at night with flowers and a teddy bear. I remember it all because that is the day I became a mother. It would be 3 short months later before I got to hold my little bundle. And then the days would never be the same again.

It's hard to believe that this sweet face turned into this adorable little boy. With a sense of humor, a heart of gold, and a little bit of a sneaky side to boot.2 years ago I became a mother.....a role I had longed for. The last 2 years have been more than I ever imagined. When I got that phone call I don't think I truly "got" all that was to come. The really really hard times, and the really really good ones too.

My life changed on that day 2 years ago on the side of the road listening to my husband, the man that I love above no other, tell me that we had a son!!!! Our prayers and dreams had been answered. And we have never looked back. It's amazing how one little phone call can hold so much power to change your life forever.

Happy referral day sweet Jae-min. I knew from the moment I saw you, you were meant to be our son!! Thanks for making me a mom.

Thankful....

We had a wonderful day yesterday sharing Thanksgiving with our families. We obviously have so much to be thankful for and it was nice at the end of the busy day to take a moment and remember all of our blessings....
One little blessing at home safe and sound, and a second little blessing still in our hearts.
As we sat with our families here at home, we had a heavy heart remembering our "family" halfway around the world. In light of the recent scary and disturbing events in Korea, our hearts are very unsettled. When that plane took off from Seoul, I knew that I had left a piece of myself in Korea. Although I didn't realize how much. We have a family there, because we have Jae-min here. His birth family, foster family, and all those working at Holt are our family as well as his. We laughed with these people, we cried with them, and we grew to love them. Isn't that what family is about? So...to our family half a world away.....stay safe and know that we are thinking of you and love you. And that we are eternally thankful for each and every one of you.
And to KB too's family, whoever you may be, may you also stay safe and have peace in your decisions that are to come.
Thankful is an understatement. Please pray for our families safety half a world away.

A Playdate, A Parade, And A HoHo Sighting!!!!

On Friday we went into the city for a follow up appointment with one of Jae-min's specialists. The appointment went great and then we got to meet up with one of Jae-min's little buddies. Miss Allie (from Korea) and her family met us for lunch and then the kids had some fun playtime. We love getting the kids together and its so fun to watch them now as they are now interacting more. And what's even more fun is that recently we've been talking to Jae-min about being born in Korea. Now when asked "where were you born?" He squeals "KOREA"!!! and he knows his friends Allie, Ryan, and Auntie Kim were also born there. We love having these connections for him.
On Saturday we attended our town's annual Thanksgiving day parade. Jae-min had a ball and all we heard were......
"more shoot" for the guns going off
"Jae-min turn drums" yup was going to run into the street to play the drums
"hug Elmo, Cookie" sadly Elmo walked right by and Jae-min still talks about the snub!!!
"Cool, awesome" could be heard for just about everything else.

Here is the little man waiting for the parade to start. He was excited for the "marching feet" and had fun demonstrating his own.

This float was very unexpected but very beautiful. The figures are actually living people made to look like statues. It was such a wonderful reminder of how well our little boys 2 countries get along. Korea and America, united!!!! It makes us eager to visit the war museum on our return trip to Korea. We hear its great, a great tribute to our loyalty to each other.This sweet Panda came all the way across the street to snuggle our little man, and totally make his day!!

Jae-min was enjoying the entire parade until he saw the BIG man in red coming. Oh boy a Hoho (Santa) sighting!!!

There's the big man himself. We've been very good this year Santa.

On Sunday we actually went and saw Santa arrive in a sleigh in an outdoor mall area near our house. We told Jae-min to yell to Santa what he wanted. All of sudden we hear "Hi Hoho, Choo choo trains, crayons and scissors"

Um Santa did you get all that?

4 Months....

Today marks 4 months in our wait for KB too!!!Jae-min was funny tonight when he came around the corner and saw the number 4 in feathers, he immediately sat down next to it and said "cheese"!! Yikes wonder what he'll be doing in the many months to come as the count down continues.

He then found it funny to feel the feathers and re create his own #4. We asked Jae-min again what he wanted, a brother or a sister.....and his response....

"A sista, silly". The juries still out buddy, but we think either way he'll love them just the same!!!

We went out for some Korean food tonight to celebrate. Jae-min ate, and ate, and ate, and had lots of fun.

We got word this month that travel times have been extended for our Korean agency. Families who received their referrals in July and after won't be submitted for their EP until after the first of the new year, making travel for them around Feb. As you can imagine they are heartbroken and our hearts go out to them. Obviously this does not directly affect us at this time as we don't even have our referral yet, but we're not sure what this will mean for the future. It is not uncommon for travel this time of year to slow down or stop, but its still scary. I can't imagine having to wait 7-8 months after referral for a travel call. We were so lucky with Jae-min to have our travel call come within 3 months. We just hope when our time comes travel will be quick. But....as we are often reminded in this world of adoption you just never never know.

Please keep these families in your thoughts as they celebrate the holidays without their little ones!!!

Rock A Baby...

Rock a bye baby, on the tree top
When the wind blows, the cradle will rock
When the bow breaks, the cradle will fall
And MOMMY WILL CATCH YOU, cradle and all!!!!Jae-min has been requesting "Mamma, rock a baby" hundreds of times throughout the day lately. He comes up to me and wraps his little hands tightly around my neck, his little legs wrap tightly around my waist, and he rests his tiny head on my shoulder. I sway with my boy and sing this special song (and as you can see I changed that scary part, you know the one where the cradle falls and breaks, I thought mommy catching you sounds alittle sweeter Haha).

There is nothing like feeling your son holding onto you so so so tightly and relaxing as you sing this special song. The best is now he sings it back to me...you can hear him saying the last lines of each verse until he gets to the part "and mommy will catch you" which he sings full out, looks into my eyes and smiles...each and every time. At that moment my heart skips a beat and I just snuggle him alittle tighter.

I will be honest, there have been days lately where I've been doubting if I can physically endure this wait again. And then these moments happen and I know if KB too if anything like Jae-min I will wait till the ends of the earth and endure anything to feel another little set of hands wrapped tightly around me.

Rock a baby...someday soon I'll be able to rock a 2 babies!!! How sweet that will be!!

Diggin' Halloween!!!!

We had a fun Halloween!!! Jae-min started out the night passing out the candy. Then our little man wasn't anything cuddly, sweet, or snuggly....but he did dress up as the thing he likes best in the world (besides his mamma that is)

A diggerThat's right. We dressed Jae-min up as a construction worker and then created a digger around him. His costume was honestly the hit of the street!!! Some kids at Joe's school made the digger outline and made our son's night. He was a real trooper "driving" the digger door to door.

Although he had fun" trick or treat" (ing) he really liked passing out the candy the best. He even chased down one of his little girl friends on the street to put candy from his pumpkin into hers. Ah, what a gentleman.

Marty got in on the action and had fun walking door to door.

Jae-min sat down on the walkway when we got back to the house to empty out his loot. The funny thing is he has never had candy, or chocolate of any kind. We went through the bucket and offered him appropriate candy for a 2 year old. We also offered stickers, crayons, and some cookies he had received. Well, he looked in the bucket and pulled out the stickers and the little bag of teddy grahms!!! Thats our boy!!! He had fun decorating us with stickers and eating his "cookies, yum!"

Happy Halloween. Jae-min was definately "diggin'" it this year.

Oh and if you remember last year he was dressed as tigger. Hmm, interesting.

Full Circle!!!

Last night we attended a very special party. As you may remember, when we were waiting for Jae-min to come home we joined our agencies waiting family support group which met once a month. This is where we met the families of Allie and Ryan, both adopted from Korea and now our families remain friends and we love to get together. But, I digress.... Last night our agency decided to host a reunion party since now everyone has their babies home!!! There were about 25 families there and the room that once held such heartache and sorrow over the long wait was filled with laughter, smiles, hugs, and joy!!! There were children home from China, Korea, Ethiopia, and Guatemala. Looking around the room was amazing. Every family that we had met in this group had their child home!!! What a feeling. We had fun catching up with everyone and they were excited to see how well Jae-min is doing. We also had fun visiting with Allie and Ryan and their families. Its always a good time to talk to others who totally get what you went through. 'And Jae-min decided to look dapper in hopes of catching Allie's eye...haha
The funny news was that out of 25 families, we're the only family currently in process again. Hmm, do they know something we don't know?
Unfortunately they have stopped this group so we won't be able to join as we wait for KB too. That saddens me as we would love to meet up with others this time around.
It was an awesome night full of hope.....a night to finally fill the circle!!
*I did not post any pics of the other children as I did not get permission from their families to do so....but let me tell you that was a room full of cuties, very special children*

The Back Seat Driver!!!

Whether its a long ride or a short trip around town, there's one thing for sure....you will always have a back seat driver!!!! Jae-min has decided to take it upon himself to keep traffic safety and back seat driving his #1 priority. Here's some of his lessons for you...
*When your approaching one of those red octagon signs you'll hear "stop sign" from the back. Don't dare roll through it because it will be followed by "mommy STOP SIGN"!!
*He now looks out every window in the car and give his commentary of what he sees. If its something he likes he'll keep repeating "more...., (usually more digger)" He'll then say "keep my eyes open". I guess that was my answer for a long time Just keep your eyes open, maybe you'll see more.
*Don't dare take one hand off the wheel. You'll hear "mommy two hands" yup not kidding
*You may also hear "music up, dance" which will be followed by him doing the mashed potatoe in his car seat.
*He is aware of all the streets around town and what is down these streets. If he wants to go a certain way and your not, he'll say "no, this way...that way". When we approach certain streets he'll exclaim "playground, library, even if that's not where we're heading.
*He's also been known to try to negotiate some air circulation "window down please. Just alittle" So...if you're the one driving make sure you follow all those traffic rules. Because there's little eyes watching!!!
Ok, alittle funny story...
Yesterday morning after getting Jae-min dressed I asked him to put his jammies in the laundry. He looked at me very seriously, scrunched up his little nose, tilted his little head and said....
"No way, maybe next time"
Not kidding. When did he get to be a 16 yr old with an attitude? But gosh, it was really really cute Haha

3 Months....

Today is 3 months in our wait for KB too. This months marker has me feeling alittle strange, alittle weird and empty.So far since beginning all the paperwork this spring, the wait has been totally fine. Sort of non existent actually. But...this 3 months is hitting me kind of hard. I think its because long ago when we waited years in the China line and then switched to Korea, it was this 3 month waiting marker when we actually saw Jae-min's sweet face for the first time. We were then quickly matched with him and 3 short months later he was home. That whole process went so quickly, after so many years of frustrations!!! Now as this 3 months hits I sort of wish we had found our next child already. I sort of wish we could have seen their sweet face and known who they are. I have been wondering all day how long will this wait actually be? The time frame we have been quoted is long, and we don't know if that will actually happen. Our hearts and minds remain open to whatever is to come, so you never know!!!

3 months into the wait is something to celebrate. Although, I'm starting to feel that waiting "ache" in my heart . The "ache" that something is missing. The "ache" that makes this waiting so so hard. So.....wherever and whoever you are little one, we will wait for eternity if we have to. We have living, breathing proof that the wait is so so worth it.

What Do You Get?.....*Update Added About Marty..

When you add together....
3 straight days of rain,
1 dog on the mend from heart failure,
and 1 sick little two year old?
One stir crazed, very tired mamma. Phew...its been a LONG couple of days. The rain has been falling, the dog needs his meds and then in turn to go to the bathroom 100 times a day in that pouring rain. The child needs to run around but can't because of that said pouring rain!!! To top it all off Jae-min's little runny nose went directly into his chest and now he's back on his nebulizer to help with the wheezing and coughing.
So...like any "good" mamma, we've been making the most of this situation. I think all of my teacher tricks have been used up so today we decided to dump out his sock basket and outfit all of his "stuffed friends" with new pairs of socks!!!!

Everyone needs a nice new dry pair of socks in the pouring rain, don't they? Here's to hoping for sunny, breathing better days ahead!!!!!

*Update: Marty had his heart test today (Thurs) and let me tell you he was a trooper. He laid so still and let them do what they needed to do. Just one more reason why I love him so!!! The news was...um...not as positive as we'd like. The doctor was super nice and gave me lots of mumble jumble about hearts and stuff (which I understand in my head, just can't share it out loud) The jist is....Marty's condition is degenerative, meaning it will never get better, only worse. The meds will hopefully slow it down, but won't cure it. He laid it out pretty honestly and told me that most dogs only live 1 year....could be longer, could be shorter. That was alittle gut wrenching to hear. 1 year...wow. He gave me lots of symptoms to look for...I hope I don't see any of them for a long time.

Tonight my heart just hurts for Marty. I feel like he's a bit of a ticking time bomb. Tonight when Jae-min shared his blankie with Marty tears streamed down my face!!! I just wonder how we will ever say goodbye when its time? For now, we'll enjoy our Martin. We love you buddy.

Home!!!!

Marty was able to come home last night. He responded wonderfully to the protocol they used and they thought the emergency was over....but, the long term affects are still unknown. He has an appt for a test next Thurs where they will look at his heart and see what the future holds. He came home on 3 differect meds and is taking them like a champ. They are very nervous about damages done and about how much heart disease he has. We are too. We just want next Thurs to come to find out the answers. There is a question if Marty should have been prescribed a steroid for itchy skin 2 weeks ago by our vet due to a heart murmur he's had. The hospital is wondering if this is the cause or if it was just coincidental. We shall see. Needless to say we're alittle upset with the vet with how this has all gone down. We'll have our answers next week!!!!

Marty's been having a tough day with his belly now being upset. So...he gets to eat boiled chicken and hamburg meat...Yeah, he's not complaining anymore!!!!
Jae-min came with us last night to pick up Martin, we thought that was important because he saw the whole thing the day before and it was scary for him. Before Marty was brought out Jae-min was bouncing up and down, saying "Yay Martin, fix him" and clapping his hands. The reunion between the two was priceless!!!!!

So, for today our Martin is home safe and sound. I will admit I keep one eye on him making sure he's breathing ok. And yes, he's been getting lots of extra hugs and kisses.

Keep us in your thoughts next Thurs. I think we're going to need lots of strength to hear the news.

Our Martin....

Our Martin is sick....very sick. After one of the longest, worst nights of our lives, I took my little buddy to an emergency clinic this morning and he was in complete heart failure when we arrived. They rushed him back to their rooms and put him in an oxygen cage and have been giving him meds ever since. Our Martin had trouble breathing all night and some medicine he was taking for itchy skin may have contributed to his heart failure. Our Martin is fighting to stay with us....

It's been a long difficult day around here. The doctors are hoping he responds to the meds in the next few days and then will do another test next week to see what the future holds for our little buddy. We are able to call and check on him, and so far he's doing well. Thank goodness.

I knew Martin wasn't invincible, but what I didn't know was how much of a fixture he is in my everday life. Now that I stay at home with Jae-min Martin follows me everywhere. It's been a hard night, expecting him around every corner and in the middle of every activity, but he wasn't there. Not to mention the heartbreaking words of one little 2 year old...."Martin home" and then after explaining where he is that little 2 year old saying "fix him"

That's how we all feel......please oh please fix him!!!! We're not ready to let him go yet. We know that to many Marty is "just a dog", but to us he's so so much more.

I'm not even sure who reads all my ramblings anymore, but if your out there please say alittle prayer for Marty and for us that we all make it through this with our little buddy intact!!!!!

Happy Fall And Happy Chuseok!!!!!

Ah, fall in the US is filled with beautiful colors, a chill in the air, pumkins, apples, and nights beginning just alittle sooner!!! Jae-min had a great time enjoying some fall activities.....

"So, you want me to find the perfect pumpkin among ALL these?""Ok, I'll do my best"!!!
"Yay, the best apples are on the tops of the trees. Hoist me up Daddy!!!"

"I think this one looks perfect!!!"

"Another great find"

Apple picking and pumpking finding sure were fun, but the best part of the day for Jae-min was investigating all of the farm equipment.

Tractors, diggers, wagon, scoops, oh my!!!

In Korea fall is celebrated this week with a holiday called Chuseok. It's very similar to our Thanksgiving. Korean families travel and gather together. They share a feast of food, mainly rice cakes. They honor their ancestors and the children dress in their hanboks and play games. It's a wonderful time and is also known as the Harvest Moon celebration .

We celebrated last night by making some Korean food and trying a new recipe for Haddeok. Yum yum yum we all loved it. We plan to celebrate this weekend as well.

So....Happy Fall and Happy Chuseok to all.

Na Night....

When darkness falls and the moon and stars are out...
You will hear the sounds of laughter and splashes coming from a little man in his tubby.
You will hear him singing songs as he gets dried off and snuggled into his jammies by his mommy.
You will see his happy face as he finds his daddy to snuggle with and watch a little tv and drink his cup of milk.
You will hear the ABC song as he brushes his teeth all shiny and clean.
You will watch a family hug in the hallway. Kissing mommy, daddy, and then blowing a kiss to Marty.
You will hear a little voice say "just one more" to which this family comes together and hugs again.
You will watch a mommy snuggle her boy and rock him as she reads books, 4 books to be exact, the same books each and every night.
You will watch a mommy stroke her son's hair and forehead and rock him silently for a few moments after the books are put away. You will hear her softly tell her child how very much she loves him.
You will watch a mommy gently place her child into his crib and cover him with his blankies.
You will hear that child sigh, then look at his mommy in the darkness with a look of contentment all over his face.
You will watch that mommy pause before opening the door, and that child slightly raise his head to smile.
You will hear the door close tightly and watch that mommy pause on the other side of the door.
If you listen really carefully, you will hear her silently say a prayer of thanks for such a wonderful son, such a wonderful gift. Night time wasn't always like this. It once was filled with sobbing, gut wrenching screams. If you had visited this home before you may have seen alittle boy not wanting comfort from this mommy. I still vividly remember nights trying to comfort my son and when he realized it was me, would then start crying inconsolably. I wasn't the omma he wanted. I remember picking him up trying to rock him and him looking at me and screaming with his little tongue wiggling. I wasn't the omma he wanted. He would feel my arm in the middle of the night and then realize, I wasn't the omma he wanted. That's what makes it so much sweeter. All of that stuggling led to this:
Last night after tubby time Jae-min ran off all snuggled and clean to look for daddy to watch tv. The next thing I know I hear these little footprints coming back down the hall. He peers around the corner and says "I love you".
I guess now I'm the omma he wanted!!!!!!

He May Not....

He may not have my big brown eyes....

His are deep brown and almond shaped.

He may not have my wavy hair...

His is jet black and oh so straight.

He may not have my larger nose...

His is small and button like.

He may not have my DNA...

But, he sure does have my HEART!!!!Today we celebrate one and a half years as Jae-min's parents. That's 18 months calling Jae-min our son. I find myself looking at him often and wondering about his birthparents. I wonder...

Which one of them was easygoing just like him?

Which one of them was inquisitive just like him?

Which one liked spicy foods?

Which one was a jokester?

Where did he get all the peach fuzz hair on his shoulders and back?

Where did he get his empathy and his caring spirit?

I think about them all the time and would honestly give anything for a chance to meet them. To see them and talk with them. Although knowing Jae-min as I do, I already feel like I know them. So...Jae-min sure doesn't have my genes, but I know that no other child could capture my heart more than him!!! He may not have been born from this body, but he sure was born from this heart. Happy 18 months home Jae-min. And thank you to your birthparents for making that most difficult and selfless decision.

Tomorrow we celebrate 2 months waiting for KB too. Yahoo.

Your brother can't wait to meet you KB too. Each month that goes by my heart gets bigger and bigger with anticipation with all that is to come!!!