And there you were.....

It has been 4 years since those doors opened in a room a world away....4 years since the son we had longed for and loved from afar became REAL.  4 years since we sat in a little room feeling like we were going to throw up when suddenly just like that a door opened and our lives stood still.

I vividly remember every single second of that meeting.  Every single second of the nerves, the fear, the laughter, and the tears.  I remember sitting there and unexpectedly Jae-min's Omma handing me our son....

I remember how he smelled, how he felt, how he looked at me and smiled.  I remember the feeling of those blue pants he was wearing and reading his shirt that said "happy".  I remember the kerchief tied around his little neck to catch the drool.  I remember handing him back to his Omma and with the sweetest words in Korean she began to speak to him.  And I remember him lighting up so big as she sang to him and thinking "I hope someday he lights up like that with me".

I remember a room full of joy, full of such happiness that we felt we could conquer the world.

I remember walking downstairs with him and watching him light up the room.  I remember everyone he came in contact with smiling and loving on our boy.
And then I remember having to say goodbye....to hand him back to his Omma for just a few more days.  I remember leaving Holt with empty arms, but a full heart.  I remember feeling like I was walking on air!!!!  Because on this day 4 years ago we touched and loved on our son....and this was just the beginning.....